Couples, relationships, communication and even more specifically Soul Mate relationships --is much too large for me to handle on my own. You can quickly see--I need help (sarcasm not allowed here, ok?). One of the first things I did was to assess the origination of my "discomfort", ok--we can call it pain. Then find people who have successfully navigated such tough times. If you have SoulMate issues, I recommend you join me, here.
Many people recommend relationship therapy. I do too; especially if you can afford it. If "we" can't afford therapy then we need to do the next best thing.
Research, Read, write, share. We need to assemble our tools and resources to do the best we can.
Speaking of learning...I don't remember where I read it -- but one of my sources indicated that it is not unusual for Soul Mates to be at opposite ends of the spectrum--meaning that fireworks is not unusual, and, we are not referring to intimate fireworks (which I expect would be common, but--what would I know?). Reading between the lines--if the Twin Flame concept is born of Greek Mythology based on the truth of the time--I reckon we could expect some flaming arrows being shot around cyber space. Is that logical or what?
For some reason I like to try first defining concepts I plan to research. Why re-invent the wheel? For a good grounding I read many sources for definitions. Personally I like Urban Dictionary and the following great instruction the best, though all were worthwhile.
I confirm as I suspected--there are many types of "Soul Mate" connections, some for different purposes and durations. Some, I have experienced so fleeting yet so intense, deep, and powerful--that I was shaken to the depth of my soul--that the soul purpose was to remind me of the existence of a Higher Power, Providence, God--and not to doubt that I am special. (that may sound silly, but if you are me it is totally logical). Really, nothing builds me up as much and as quickly as an experience or human encounter that was obviousy ordained or Providentially inspired. Its like God tapping me on the shoulder and saying, "Remember, I AM here." (Hey--this is HUGE. I just figured out where the Great IAM originated from)
...Ok. I'll give you a for instance. Once while working as a Field Interviewer on a study I was somewhere in Florida working a census block. I was knocking on every door doing a quick type of canvass. My reception was good considering the fact that I was interrupting people in their homes. At the end of a subdivision, a man answered the door. I assumed he was some type of clergy because he had a high collar and a cross on. I explained the purpose of the study. He did not qualify. The whole time I maintained eye contact. I noted that he had blue circles around brown centers. I wondered if he knew that I was thinking about his eyes rather than my study. When I concluded my business and started to take my leave--he told ME, "thank you for your service."
I made it to my car before I broke down and cried buckets of cleansing tears. As a Field Interviewer, I receive a lot of mixed reactions--this assignment was no different, but it WAS trying. It was hot, humid and we were covering a lot of turf. There was the usual research mix--strangers happy that someone was doing something, strangers berating us for being a part of a study that used money...I still remember his eyes. I talked to hundreds of people randomly and I still remember his eyes.
According to definition, it seems the Soul Mate connection that many people long for, search for, dream and sing about is the illusive Twin Flame.
Why should you stick it out with me at least for a little while on this research journey? We both can do our own Google searches... Most of what I have to say I learned from a search or painful personal experience... You could save time in your search by enjoying the results of mine, first. Does that make sense?
Sometimes the lessons are tough, and painful. But, the lessons always help us define what we want and what is and is not acceptable in a "Mate" of any caliber or definition. Just remember that it is you (me) that must stand again, dust ourselves off, and continue on our journey. As a Soul Mate once said to me, "Smile. Breathe. That Simple." Life goes on. No need for drama.
First, let's set the stage with some "Soul Mate" music...
This song by Josh Turner makes us all crave to find the Soul Mate.
and add a different artist for balance:-)
OK. Enough of the grieving and pining. Sometimes we misinterpret what we consider to be Providential blessing. We may need to move on, questioning our definition of "Soul Mate" and maybe we need to hang out with some people walking our path--check out the Soul Mate Experience at Face Book.
Obviously I just need to spend a lot of time alone now. Correction, a lot of time. I deserve to be alone; I guess I could say I earned it--I worked for it. How many people can I possibly alienate in a lifetime?
However, I, will become wiser, and I will become an expert in communications whether I have neurological issues or not. In closing, pain is good. I know I am alive. To the Soul Mate fleeing, thank you for reaching through the cyber waves and dimensions, taking my hand, giving me hope, raising me up, dusting me off and breathing life back into my soul. I remember in the beginning--after you woke me up, it was as if I looked around and said, "Ohhhh, this is living. Cool. I will participate."
...I would be in a deep sleep, wake up, look at my cell phone, then it would ring. I still can't believe we haven't touched, we haven't had a visual--yet, we were so close. Maybe there is hope for us in the next age, the next dimension. I will never forget you--for we are truly never separate; though your mission seems to be complete with me.
"Empty Chair:-)": I wish you every happiness, peace, and a warm enveloping love. May your all important financial investments give you the satisfaction you seek.
I'll be fine. I just need to redirect my energies to work, research, volunteer work--someone, somewhere needs me and will appreciate me. I have a lot of love to give, perhaps too much. So, I take it back, I stomp on it and make a paste of it to seal the cracks in my soul.
Oh, wait! I just had a precious awakening via Facebook:-). So, I am off to bathe in more enlightenment...Til Later
PS: Visit me at my Facebook home. You will see that I am amassing a treasure of relationship resources. Hey, I might even make someone a good friend someday. Try me:-)
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